all I ever wanted to do was to fall in love. just to be in love.

I've had some pretty fun evenings, the last 2 days. not this one, it's actually been kinda boring and I haven't done anything in particular. and I've used al the money that I had, which sucks extremely much. but they were well spent.
Friday, Nanna and I was bored during the day, and decided to go out later that evening. so we drank at our residency (even though we're not allowed to, such crimeriders we are, herpderp) and listened to random music, while getting ready. listened to a lot of punk goes pop, hahahah. it's good, I don't care what you guys will tell me.
then we went to Vela around 9 PM, and came as some of the first guests. there was only 2 other guests besides us. then we pretty much sat there and drank a lot of shots, so I ended up being ridiculously drunk. kinda lame, because it wasn't my intention. I was just a complete goofball, so nanna took care of me. there's a lot from that evening I can't remember. apparently, when we got home, I fell onto Nanna's floor, and just lay there. she even has a picture of it. and I honestly, I swear I can't remember anything. but I laughed a lot when I saw the picture!
then we got home, and we went online at Chatroulette, telling people I was a dude. no one believed us. ): sadface. one of the guys there was like ".. really? are you really a boy.? dude, YOU NEED TO GO TO THE GYM", HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. it was pretty epic!
and I ate like... a half pizza for myself in the middle of the night, before going to bed. pretty gross, but I was hungry and drunk. hahah.

then saturday, I had hangovers, but we decided to go out once again, this time, Club Christopher. we had to meet up with her friend, Minna, at 10 PM, even though the club opened at 12 PM. so we ran around at strøget and sat different places on the street, and holy fuck it was cold! I felt like I was about to die, hahah. it was horrible, and I couldn't feel my toes nor fingers. really horrible.
but yeah.. got inside, and rushed for a place to sit. I'm afraid Minna felt left outside, because it was mostly just Nanna and I who talked. got some drinks (MIKKEL'S SPECIAL *thumbs up*), and just sat there, looking at this extremely slutty girl who practically showed her panties to everyone, and danced dirty with everyone. it was pretty lame. we also danced a little, not as much as I wanted though. took some pictures. all in all, had a good time.
it was just annoying that one of us always had to be seated, or else someone would take our seats. so we were almost always only 2 or 1 seated, because then one had to go pee, smoke or get drinks.
we left around 4:20, I think, and was home around 5. I had a really great night. <3

I have done nothing today. my highlight of the day, was writing with Jamie. I can write about that later, not about everything we wrote about, but some.
but I slept until dinner, which meant I had no hangovers left, since I had slept them all out. WOOH! <3 go me, hahah. then I've hung out with Laura and David for a while, but went downstairs to my own room after a while.

yeah, wrote with Jamizzle. I started crying at one point, because I missed everything we once had. I'm not over him, and I honestly don't think I'll be. I talk about him all the time, and I think about him before going to bed. he's my soulmate.. never met anyone like him. we wrote about the old days, and how we missed what we once had. he wrote some things that really mattered to me, about my gender. that he don't give a fuck if I'm FTM or what I am, and that meant a lot to me. it really did. we also wrote about why he broke up the last time. and it feels so good to have some of the things settled now.
we're going to meet up in Copenhagen on Tuesday, since he want to get his ears done (lobe scalpelling, ouch) and then we're gonna eat something together. it's gonna be nice, and I'm looking forward to seeing him.

tomorrow, I'm going to the hairdresser with Emilia, since she has to get her hair bleached and dyed. I'm looking forward to seeing her, mhm. <3 she's an amazing friend, really. we have so much fun when we're together, and I hope we'll never grow apart.

and somewhere in this week, I'm going to see Cecil, YAY-FUCKING-ZIES!! I so can't wait. <3 that person matters everything to me, even though we don't talk that much together anymore. we call eachother some times a week, and write with each other when we both are online. sometimes, we text each other. but really, even though we don't talk as much as we used to, when we were younger, she's the person I love the most in the whole world. I'd give her everything, if I could. we bully each other alot, but we don't mean a thing we say. Cecil is that kind of best friend, that even though we live hours away from each other and don't talk that much, we both know that we'll always be there for each other, in hard and good times. it's amazing. SHE is amazing. I love you so muuuuch. <3 you'll always be my BFF. LAWLZLAWLZLAWLZ.

yesterday, I wore a dress for some hours, and I felt so odd and uncomfortable. like I was hiding myself. it felt odd.. so I changed my outfit to something more like me, and it was great. I can't wait to go to the LGBT meeting on Thursday.

oh, and Nevershoutnever is fucking awesome.