I knew you were a liar. I knew you were a liar from the start.

I had to go to my Japanese lessons today, but I bailed, because I slept over. and yeah.. it's in the middle of the afternoon, but that's how much I sleep. I slept until 6:30 PM today, as I do quite often these days. and I'm still tired. I just want to sleep my days away sometimes. but I also wanted to go to my Japanese lessons, but I was simply too tired.. so yeah. I slept until 6:30, and then I got up, ate dinner, and went online. did some laundry, since I have no clean box0rz left, and I feel awkward and sad these days, if I wear girl's underwear. it's rather weird. :0
then Laura got home, and I went up to her room. she got a stationary computer now, so we can play Sims, hahahahhahah! it's the only reason why she got that computer. it's pretty awesome for me though, because I love playing Sims. fail, I know. :'D but you can do so many awesome stuff in that game! like, get babies with aliens and shit like that. pretty cool.
and then I've pretty much done nothing else. kind of a boring day, I'll admit.

lately, I've started to re-listen to L.O.C, STFU HE'S A PERFECTLY FINE ARTIST, AND I ADORE HIS MUSIC. but seriously, it's great. I absolutely LOVE the "Melankolia" album, it's extraordinary. "Hvorfor vil du ikk'", "Tortur" and "Fuck mig nu" are amazing songs, really. I don't care what others think of his music, I find it great. it seems like everybody is hating on him, hahah. at least my friends do.

I'm going to change my first name soon, in the next months that will come. I really can't wait. I'm going to be named "Skye", as I've wanted since I heard the name for the first time. I'm going to talk to them about changing into "boy"' names, because Laura knows a girl, who's name is Jerry now, which is not an unisex name. if I could get every name in the world, I would be Damien, without a doubt. so I'm going to talk to them about it. if I can't be Damien, I'll just be Skye. and that works for me, too. but I really hope I can do it like Jerry did, and change into a boy's name...
my family is okay with me getting a new name btw. or, my mum is, but it's pretty much her opinion that matters to me. she knows how much it means to me. I love my mum. she's really understanding, and supportive of pretty much everything I do and feel. it's amazing, she has become an amazing mother.

sometimes, I wonder why people can cope with all the crap I do.. I'm writing with this really sweet girl, I think I mentioned her in my previous entry, and I feel like such a douchebag towards her. I've admitted that I flirt with a lot of others, that there are chances that I might fall for them and all that jazz, and about my mental disorders and gender dysphoria, and she's still there. I really don't get it. I'm such a douchebag. and she's still understanding, and doesn't hate me, even though she knows there are chances I might fall for others. I really, really, really don't get it.
but she's so sweet and urgh. but she lives so far away, pretty much as far away as you can get.

tomorrow, I'm going to see a counsellor at the LGBT team in Denmark, and I really can't wait. hopefully, I'll get to talk some of my troubles and worries out, and feel less tangled up in all these thoughts.