I just fell from the Mothership.

the weekend has been... simply awesome. I've felt so many feelings, but in a great way. I've laughed, loved, cried, been tired, been serious, been a lot of things. and even though it sounds overwhelming, it was just what I needed.
I had plans with Jamie, because he needed to get his ears done, by Muffe at Copenhagen Body Extremes. so I went to the central station of Copenhagen, where I randomly met Cecil! OMG, I was like... SO happy when I saw her! if I had a tail, I would whack it like crazy, hahah. I felt like my day couldn't get any better. she said she saw some person she found really hot, and when she saw my face, she was like "FUUU----CK!" and jumped me. it was nice, nice, nice. <3 it's been a while since I last saw her. so it was all good.
then we parted, because her friends were waiting for her at McD (LAWLZ) and I had to pick up Jamie. again, when I saw him, my tail happily whacked, hahaha. I saw two of the dearest persons in my life on that day, so I couldn't get more glad than I was. I introduced them to each other, too.
then Jamie and I walked around in Copenhagen, until it was 1 AM, and then we went to Body Extremes. he had to get earlobe scalpelling, which in other words mean.. getting his lobes cut up and get stretched. but it turned out so awesome! I was like "OH GOD!" when I saw them done, they were so pretty.
then we ate some McD, and just walked around and went home to me. ate some delicious hawaii pizza near the central station. bought these weird, floppy balls designed to look like chickens, and laughed at them for about half an hour, hahahahah. I laughed a lot, really. then we went home to my residency, and drank. we got on some subjects. I started to cry at one point, because I regretted all the girls and boy I've been with since we broke up.. I really regret it all. I used people and thought it was my way of getting over him. but I didn't get over him, I just got worse, and got this horrible feeling of regret in my chest instead. so yeah, I cried.
then he slept at my place. had a lovely evening and day, one of the best I've had in a very long time, mhm. <3
then we woke up the next day and just goofed around. I had to go to my cousin's birthday/nonfirmation, and I wanted him to go with me, but he wasn't allowed by my aunt. sadly. followed him to the train and then went for the party. it was pretty nice, and everybody says they can see I've gotten happier. it's pretty cool.
then after some hours, I went to Jamie's place, where we just lay and chillaxed. it was really nice. but I got sick later that evening, and was all coughy and snotty and ew, which was pretty gross.
went for a walk with him today, and then I took the train home. then I haven't done anything in particular. I kind of feel like I broke everything, by sending this stupid pussy textmessage to him. and now I feel all down, and stupid. I don't want to ruin anything, I've had such an amazing weekend, and I feel like I shattered everything by sending that stupid text.
I'm so fucking lame. urgh. I just want it to turn back time and have Friday again.

I'm so fucking lame.