you need a doctor baby, you scared?

I wrote a blog a few days ago, where I told everyone how much I loved them and appreciated them, but I ended up deleting it. I was afraid that people might think I was a bummer, because I feel like how I do, and also that people might not really care anyway. but I'm deciding on doing the blog again! but first, I'm gonna tell what I'm up to.
I'm feeling full of love today. people might think it's gross, haha. I think it's great, because it makes me happehfaced.
my mother came over today, helping me tidying my room as she does once a week, since I'm really bad at doing it myself (which, for the lulz, actually is a part of my sickness). then we went out for dinner, and we had sushi, or... I had. she got some curry chicken, and it looked so delicious! om nom nom. but I had a great time, it was nice to see her again. it's my second day of eating sushi in a row, I also ate it yesterday, since we had some really, really, really gross dish for dinner.. it smelled horrible in the entire house, and it was so yucky. I mean, which teenager decides to make "medister og stuvning" nowadays? so emma and I decided to bail, and go get some sushi instead, since there's a sushi bar right across the street. it was yummy. nom nom.

and I haven't been doing that much else.. I've just been home, chillaxing. I've watched some The X Effect on MTV, and holy shitballz, that's some sucky boy/girlfriends right there.

anyway, I want to make a shout out to my dearests, because really, they mean the world to me. without them, I would probably not be here. I love you guys with my whole heart. <3 style="text-align: center;"> Cecil; you're my best friend, and you know that. we have been that, for, what... 5 years now? I don't think that'll ever change, I've never had a friend like you. you're so weird, sweet and amazing, all in one. you're beautiful, even though you don't see it yourself, but you really are. I'm proud to have you as my best friend. I treasure all my memories and moments with you, even the bad ones. I have so many memories with you, I can't even remember it all. I remember New Year's Eve a few years ago, where we were bored and made a photostory about a banana named Johnny. we even gave him a face, hahah. I remember going to Finland this year, and it was the best vacation I have had up till now. I remember the first time we met, and we used our entire night on singing Disney songs and laughing. I treasure that memory so much. I remember going to the beach, walking in the water with pants on, and having just a blast. I remember more than you think I actually do. I'm proud to be your best friend, and I love you so much. and I know that you know that. I'm sorry I can't be there when you need it, but next year, we should really see each other more often. I love you so much.

Jamie; I have so many things I want to say to you. your kindness, your softness, geekiness and amazing personality... thank you so much for being here. I feel like I could travel space with you, so far out no one has ever been, and still feel like I was safe and whole and home, just because you're right there with me. you have no idea how much you mean to me, just thinking about you makes me smile. you're so wonderful, and I can't believe that you're mine. I would do so much to fight for you, to make you happy. when I look at pictures of you, which I do often (because I'm a creepy stalker), I feel so overwhelmed and happy and bubbly on the inside. you're really something special, and in a very good way. I don't know what to do if you weren't around, just your existence makes me happy. I remember sitting on the train, laughing at "IT'S OVER NINE THOUSAAAAAND!", while you shook your glasses. best traintrip ever. I remember the first time we met, and how fascinated I was because of you. I remember the many memories I have with "airplanes", not gonna tell about it though. I love you to the bones, baby, you're the best boyfriend ever. + you're fricking hot,hahahahah. :D no, seriously. I love you more than fat kids love chocolate chip cake. I treasure every moment I am with you, every textmessage, it fills me with love. I keep them and you tightly locked inside in my heart. Anna; we've known each other for long time, haven't we? we've even been girlfriends for 13 months. I think you're quite special, and I can't say how grateful I am to have you in my life. girl, u so sweet and awzum, hahahah. I have a lot of memories with you. I remember when my last boyfriend dumped me, and I was sad, so I came to your place, where you had lined up alcohol, fags and hookah for me. it was just pure bliss. I remember laying really drunk in the grass with you, listening to random music on your phone. I remember our 1 year anniversary, where I took you out for the ferriswheel at Vesterport, you gently laying your head on my shoulder as we watched birds in crowds. I remember when your face when I gave you that presents that day, how excited and loved you felt. it was awesome. girl, I really do love you, and never forget that.

Emilia; we've been hospitalized together, and you've seen me at my worst, and you still stick around. I don't get it. but I'm glad you do, because really, I care so much for you. I remember the first time we talked, and we sang singstars on a really low sound level, because it sounded so awful, hahah. I remember when you, laura and I dressed up with beards and weird hats, making awesome videos which still is on FB. I wuv you, even though you bully me, hahah. style="text-align: center;">

Laura; oh dear God, I love you. you've been there during really hard times, and I can't tell you how much I appreciate it. you've supported me so much, and been totally honest. I consider you as one of my best friends. you've seen me cry, laugh, being mad, in love, everything. and you're still here. I remember the Crystal Castles concert, where we were so fucked up weird, dancing like crazy people. it was fun times, hahah. I love you soooo much.

and now I'm done puking love up. :D