stars fall like dust, our lips will touch, we speak too much.

the sun has been shining all day! woohoo, but it was cold like hell. I only wore a t-shirt and a blazer, so I've dug myself tightly down into the duvets now, hahah. damn Danish weather, why must you be so cold and Scandinavian, and so un-California?

I woke up too late to go to school. but Emma woke me up, because she was feeling mentally fucked up.
but I had to go to Jamie's place, so I didn't really mind sleeping in late and skipping school. I don't know if I'll go to school tomorrow, because.. well, I don't feel like it. and I have an appointment with my psychiatrist (that hoe, I dislike him) too, so.. I have to talk to him about my psychosis, because it hasn't quite gone away yet, even though I haven't been smoking weed for a week and a half. so I probably just have a "normal" psychosis. sucks cow nipple. I don't know. I might also go see Jamie again tomorrow, and I don't want to stress myself. I have a lot of bad excuses, don't I?

so I went to my boyfriend's place today, which was really, really nice. I feel like myself, like I do with my best friend, Cecil. I helped him dye his hair blackish blue/blue-ish black, which looks AWESOME! lately, I've been considering dying my hair baby pink, or just some parts of it maybe.. I just can't find any sellers who has that colour. Black No 1 used to have it, but apparently they don't have it anymore. they only have hot pink, and I already have that hair dye (and blue hairdye, even though I've only used it once). it would look pretty rad with pink streaks, I think, because my hair is red. it'll look like this kind of love monster or something, hahahhaah.
then we made dinner, potatoes with whiskey sauce and no meat. it actually tasted really, really good, and I got so full. after that, he played the bass for me for the first time.. *hearts* he played Gorillaz and The White Stripes. I was just like "WOOOOW THAT'S AWESOME!", tehehe.
the rest of the time, we just lay in bed, talking about weird stuff and snuggling.

I love that he can accept me for who I am, whether I'm looking like a boy or a girl. of course he feels less like a man when I'm boyish, but he understand that this is a part of me. I said something like "well, I'm just a girl" and he softly replied "no, you're not. you're something else... like a mix". I felt so happy when he said that, because argh, I just felt so understood and safe and.. not having to act like a different person. this whole genderqueer thing is still new to me, and I still need support to feel like I do. and the best part is, that Cecil and Jamie totally understands me and supports me.

speaking of Cecil, I fucking miss her. D: we haven't seen each other in ages.. I miss her so badly. but we live 3 hours away from each other, so we can only hang out in the weekends and vacations, and we often both have plans there. she wrote an entry about me earlier today, and I just felt so sappy reading it, because I really miss her.