now I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not sure.

I visited my mom today! she's babysitting two of these babies. aren't she cute? she's called Lulu. they're French bulldogs. they groint when they are happy, hahah. so cute. and then they are really small, just my type of dog. the other one is called Sigrid, a Danish name (pronounces See-rid). hahahahah. they were so happy and cuddly all the time, constantly wanting attention. I'm more of a cat person, but they were so cute... I miss my brother's dog, Liva. she's so stupid, it's unbelievable. she thinks she's way smaller than she really is, so she keeps donking her head into everything, really. but she's so adorable and happy...
when I become an adult, I'll definitely get a pet. a cat, called Milk. what species, I don't know yet, but my dream is to get a munchkin. but they are so fricking expensive!

I need to get in shape btw. I've been looking at all these gorgeous boys, and I really want a body like theirs. also the girl's bodies. I just wish you could do it like THIS, and then you would be in shape, with tones muscles and all. I want to loose a few kgs, so I'd weigh.. around 53-52, about that. it's only 2-3 kgs. that could be easy to do. :D or, easy and easy... not so much maybe. hahahhaha. I just have to work hard on it, but this time, in a good and healthy way. I don't want to get anorexic again, and I don't think I will this time. I feel healthy and sane enough to go through this, without cheating and doing stupid stuff like.. stop eating and stuff like that, which I used to do, when I wanted to loose weight. come to think of it, I've never been on a real diet, only the bad ones, like just-water diets and shit like that.
I need a lot of exercise, so tomorrow, after I've hung out with Emilia, I'll go to the gym and work out on muscles and run. it's ridiculous how little muscles I have on my arms, you can squeeze them down, hahahhaahha. I fail at life. I also want to get a toned abs. and a nicer ass.

speaking of something entirely else; I want pink hair. like, really, really bad. that would be sweet. except that I would have to dye my hair every week, because the colour I normally use only last for a few days.. go suck a dick, Stargazer, go suck a dick. I'd also have to bleach my hair, and red is really difficult to bleach... and I actually like my red hair. maybe I shouldn't. but it would just be sweeeeet to have pink hair... I want some kind of crazy color, not just pink, but maybe something else. pink is the main thing I want, though.
maybe I should do it. should I?

tomorrow, I'm going to hang out with Emilia, that sweet bastard. :'D she keeps calling me gay. but wth, as a girl, I am such a bulldyke from time to time, and as a boy, I'm such a faggot it hurts.

ps. I'm allowed to see Jamie again!