Sorry you're not a winner.

hey blogspot! this is not quite my first time here, I've had two other blogs besides this, but I just needed something new, you know? I still can't decide whether or not I will continue writing in English, or I should go back to my native roots, and write in Danish.

oh yeah, but this is who I am! I'll make a small introduction of who yours truly are, and what I'm planning on writing about.

Well, my nickname is Damien, and I'm seventeen years old, turning eighteen in May. I live at a residence called "bosted" in Danish, I'm not sure if there's even such a thing like that in USA and England. Anyway, let me explain it to you. It's a few houses dedicated to young adults with problems, who can't live at home because of their illnesses. So, in this house I live in, we are currently 8 or 9, I can't remember.. I'm too tired to count. I suffer from schizophrenia, eating disorders, depression and anxiety attacks. I was hospitalized for about 7 months at a psychological ward at a hospital, 10 minutes on feet away from my mothers apartment. It was hard times, but I also had fun times there. I got a lot of friends in there, who I could, and still can, talk to about my problems without them being judgemental. I'm addicted to Coca Cola Zero and piercings. Besides this, I'm a chainsmoker and a self-harmer.
why am I writing oh so personal stuff down here? Let me tell you why;

There's a reason why my blog is called "dishonest heart". I have to put up on a mask and cheat on myself, when it's one of those days. Hide away what I'm really thinking about and shit like that. Make myself pretend I'm not thinking these grotesque thoughts I do once in a while.
I want this place to be my sanctuary. I will write here only for my sake and no one else. That's why I won't put a link on Facebook, since I don't want everyone to see it.

I'll do entries about my mood and my everyday life, since I do a lot of crap with my roomies and friends everyday.