I love you to the bones.

mhmmmm, delicious layercake. <3 you just felt like.... AAAAAAAHHHH when eating it, it was amazing. mhm, I could talk about this cake forever and ever, mhm. <3 and the cream! the cream!! AAAAAAAH. <3 we did a pretty good job on that one. I must admit.

speaking of banana, don't know why, but one of my cigarettes randomly tasted like it. it was pretty weird and more or less freaky, so I smoked it fast and put it out. I remember when I was little, I actually liked the taste of banana, but one day, I just decided that I didn't like it anymore because of the consistence and because it's sticky. so I didn't eat bananas for years.. it was almost the same about strawberries. I really loved strawberries, but after eating them when I was a child, I got so sick and threw it all up. then, of course, I didn't want to eat them anymore. because I wasn't used to the sweet taste, I started to hate them. now I like them, though.

I'm starting to get tired, but I can't allow myself to go to bed. this sucks monkey balls.

I smoke too much at the moment. one pack per day. Nanna is quitting when she comes home from Berlin, maybe I should try to cut down on my smokes too. I need my morning smoke, though, you get so lovingly fucked up in your head. the others are just pure habit, or because I feel the need to. hmmm...

I can't wait to see Jamie again. my mother has bought me a zone card so I can go visit him when I want to. my mom's so sweet, she's really supportive. I love her so much.

I WANT TO FUCKING SLEEP BUT I CAN'T. I guess I'm too screwed in my head right now, ain't I? normal people would just go to sleep. yours truly, on the other hand, stays up late because her mind tells her she doesn't deserve rest.