And when I'm gone will you forget me?

so 2010 has passed, and I can't help but feeling a little bit sentimental. I've done a lot that year, and even though it was hard at some points, it was actually a pretty good year. I gained a lot of new things, like memories, friends, love, experiences.. I also lost a few things, but the good things overshine it. I just sit here with this weird feeling now, not knowing what will happen in the next 12 months. it seems kind of frightening. :0
I originally wanted to do an entry about how much I've changed throughout the year, and what I've done. but then I kind of forgot it, and went to Jamie's place, and had no pictures with me... so yeah. maybe later, or maybe in this entry. idfk. :'D

but New Years Eve was spent well. I was together with Jamie, at his best friend's place. I was really nervous because I had to meet his best mate, but I think it went well. got a lot of alcohol and got pretty drunk. we kissed as the new years started, which is the first time I've done that.

oh yeah... and we're not together anymore. it's kind of complicated. at first, I was really mad, then I got sad, and now I'm kind of okay, I think. Stefan and Laura cheered me up, they're such good mates. I'm just scared of how I'll feel tomorrow, and stuff like that. but I'm somehow okay, to an extent. of course I'm still sad. but wth, I'm trying not to think about it.
it's just sad, that I believed that we were going in the right direction, but I understand the guy. I'm trying not to go into details. I just find it sad, because I really do love him, and I feel like a part of me broke. I really did, and do.

And when I'm gone will you forget me?