while she hides the scars underneath her pretty clothes.

I went shopping with Laura, and later on, Emma yesterday. I found out that I have around 4000 DKK in the bank, so I celebrated it by shopping. I bought a bunch of nice stuff, huhuhuuu. this flowery dress I'm planning on using a day I'm playing pin-up, a long t-shirt I can use as a dress too, a dress with a big ribbon on, an owl necklace, bandanas, a pair of shoes and then the most AWESOME thing ever; CAREBEAR EARPLUGS. YES, FUCKING CAREBEAR EARPLUGS. HOW AWESOME IS THAT NOT!? I love them to pieces, they are so great and awesome. they're blue and was really cheap.
Emma had 500 DKK, and suddenly, she was all made of "shouldn't I get a Medusa? Taxi Piercing is still open", so down we went. it was really random, but she got her medusa, and it looks amazing on her, like what she has been missing in her face. it really matches her features great.

then we got home and ate, talked about piercings and tattoos at the dinner table, and our addiction to it. after that, Emma and I were bored, so we decided to go to Christiania and smoke some weed. I didn't get that high, because we only had under a half left, for two persons.. normally, we smoke half a joint each before we get high, so that's understandable that we didn't really got like that... I spend too much smoking lately. but hey, I've cut down on my regular LA cigarettes! that's good! I know weed is worse, and I should stop and all..

I will write again later, I think. right now, I just don't know what to write, but I have a lot of things on my mind I want to tell about.

Doodle takes dad's scissors to her skin
And when she does relief comes setting in
While she hides the scars she's making underneath her pretty clothes
She sings:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?

come on baby, you can bleed like me.

I bought this French-ish hat today! I love it already, muhahah. it matches pretty well with my current style, so I'm pleased. now I have approximately... 60 DKK, for the rest of the week, until Saturday. (have you ever noticed that when spelling "Saturday", you also spell "turd"? I have. because I'm lame).
On Saturday, I'm going to a Hero and Villain party at The Rock, if laura's coming with me and I'm not seeing Jamie. it's gonna be awesome. I'm planning on being a villain with a black, detailed mask and black shiny leggins. the rest will probably be red.

I've been to school today, woohoo! I lasted the entire lesson again, and I'm planning on going there tomorrow too. life is taking small steps in the right direction, I have an amazing boyfriend whom I love dearly, great friends surrounding me everyday, and last but not least, the cherry on the cake, my best friend I love more than anything. when I come to think of it, I can't say that I have been lonely in the past... 2 months, I think... it's scary to think that, that I'm always together with someone, besides nighttime when I sleep. I'd like to sleep with Jamie next to me every night though...
anyway, school. during a break, I decided to go out and get a smoke, and suddenly these two dudes turns up, asking me "why I have so many piercings". I mean, herpderp. why do you think so? because I like them, and I find them beautiful. then they asked me if I'm happy about them. told them yes. and then they asked me again, "why do you have them?". while I talked, they seemed like it was very funny that I have them. HERPDERP COME ON I ONLY SIGNED UP FOR A SMOKE. luckily, one of the girls from my class came to rescue me, so off we went.

yesterday, I went to Christiania again, and got high with Laura. chillaxing to tha maaaax. it was dark outside, so someone had lit a bonfire in the middle of the hills. so we decided to sit us there and smoke a joint, and look at people. it was really nice. then I got my eatingface on, and ate a falafel and a pancake. yummay man!
so basically, I've been to Staden all days this weekend. :D fun times, fun times. I enjoy being young.

I fly like paper, get high like planes.

I managed the entire lesson yesterday in Danish class! that's the first time. I've been through a whole English class before, but I'm surprised that I could actually hold it throughout the entire, boring, lesson. I'm so good, hahaha. fail. my life is pure failz000r.
after school, I decided to go visit my sister at work and eat some sushi, since I had nothing to do and Emma wasn't home (I think). so off to Fields I went. I got tempura, omelettes, tofu and salmon. mhhhhm, I love sushi. it's unfair, there's a sushi restaurant right across the street from where I live. everytime I walk by, I can't help but feel a little tempted to eat there, but I unfortunately, I don't have enough monies to go nomming there.
after I had eaten at my sister's work, I picked up my mom. then I got home at my old place and slept for an hour or so, and then we just talked about all and everything. it was really nice, and I enjoyed it to the maaaaax. my mother is so sweet, even though we have had our discussions and problems. she has met someone new she's just having fun with, but she's still in love in Bjarne. it's so sad. it was the love of her life, she said.
I picked up a bunch of my CD's and DVD's, now that I can play them on my computer again. ommenommmmm. hahahaha.
we also talked about funerals, and how we want ours. kinda depressing, but it's really good to know stuff like that.. I guess.
then I got back home, where Emma and I decided to party and go to Vela. it's been a whole month since the last time I were there, it's weird. there was this girl who kept hitting on me heavily, but I just told her that I had a boyfriend. she didn't mind that, it appeared, because she kept touching me all the fucking time.. D: it was really unpleasant, I must admit that.
there wasn't really that party at Vela, and those girls we were talking with had to go at 11 PM, so we decided to leave and go to Christiania. smoked some weed and got high. it's a long time ago since I was high, which I'm pretty proud of. but it felt so... so good.

is it cool if I hold your hand?

the last two days has been splendid.. hearts and flowers. omg, I can't describe how happy I feel. Yesterday, Jamie and I decided that he should come visit me since he had the monies. it was the first time he saw my place. yesterday, we did nothing really, just chillaxed in my bed and slept for some hours together. we woke up at 4 AM, and were all made of "where the shit did all these hours go?". hahahah. we also went out at around 9 PM to buy some stuff, which also was really cozy and nice. we've been drinking so much Schnapple these days! :D it tastes like fucking heaven, hahah. they're worth the 20 DKK it costs. nomz.
he slept at my place. originally, he had plans at 11 AM and I had to go to school, but he decided to skip his shrink and I just met in later. I sat him off at Frederiksberg Centeret and went to school for an hour or so. I couldn't really concentrate, as always.
after school, I picked my boy up and we had nothing to do, so I thought of this awesome idea; why not go to the zoo when I have free cards from there? wohoo. so off we went on our first date. (harharh, must listen to that blink 182 song, First Date now.)
we also went to Children's Zoo, hence the picture. we fucking played with goats! 8D I dared him to get in there with the goats, and so he did. I just had to take a picture...
I forgot I had to go see my shrink, so I sat him off once again, because I couldn't get out of that appointment, since my contact person was coming too. luckily, it only lasted for about half an hour. after that, we went to a restaurant to eat. it was sooo fucking tasty, the dishes we got! we got these beefs and french fries with fucking three times of whiskey sauce. the sad thing is... we ate all the sauce. *facepalm*
he stayed at my place until 10:30 PM, and I have had two wonderful days. I love that guy, I'm so fucking in love with him. he makes me feel right, makes me laugh and makes me happy. I couldn't ask for more than what he does to me, he completely understands me.

now take of that dress and go to sleep.

I went to Tisvilde with Emma and Berit, our contact person, this Friday. my residence own this little house up there, and it was raining and storming, which was so nice. nomz. since there was no TV nor internet, we just used our time talking, and they played a game while I drew. I got some pretty fine drawings out of that. we talked about all and everything, about our sicknesses and weaknesses and our past, which made me understand myself and Emma even better. we have a lot in common when it comes to our past and our personalities. all in all, we just had a really nice time up there, and Emma and I stayed up until late, just smoking and doing weird stuff, like smearing her entire knee in vaseline. our excuse? we were bored. one time when she was bored and by herself, she decided for some reason to smear her whole face in vaseline, hahahha. that girl is awesome.

Saturday, we went to Sweden to shop. oh la laaaa. I bought this fancy, antique-ish, flowery dress, and I love it so much. I wore it today, and everyone told me I looked cute. I'm so happy I bought it, I really am! I was almost about to buy the same dress in black, but decided to buy the antique white one instead.

Sunday, I didn't really do anything I can remember of, besides hanging up my new hot poster of two girls naked in the shower with each other, which I got as a present from Nanna, since she went to Berlin. I love it already. she flipped through a poster magazine and found it, and thought of me for some reason, hahahahahha. I'm so gay, I know it. *looks at wall with naked chicks*
I had decided to surprise attack Jamie at the airport, so I was all dolled up since I had nothing to do, and had my presents for him ready and were about to leave, when suddenly, my phone rings. it was Jamie. apparently, they came earlier than expected, so my plans totally fell down the drain, hahah. it was nice to hear his voice again, and he had had such an amazing trip to Egypt. nomz.
so I visited him today after school, arriving at 1 PM. I went home at 10:30 PM. we basically used most of our time talking about what we had being done while apart, snuggled and teased each other (or rather me teasing him). I love him. it was amazing to see him, I'm having such a blast in this relationship. mmmhm. *purrr*

and now, I'll smoke some fags and watch The L Word.

ash to ash.

I fell from the mothership.

yesterday was nice. I had to be in school by nine o'clock, but I woke up at ten. then I decided that I should just fuck it and skip it. so instead, I just slept until 12 o'clock and fucked a bit around at home. I honestly don't remember what I was doing... probably nothing of any kind of interest. maybe I was online? I think I was. anyway, this is not interesting.
oh, I ate tofifee with Emma! they're so delicious, I seriously love that kind of chocolate. om nom nomz... I love it.

Emma, Laura and I decided to go to Strøget, since I needed some private stuff, so we went there for about an hour. unfortunately, one of the shops where I had to buy one of my personal things was closed, so instead I ate a calzone from 7eleven. holy shit, they taste like NOM. mmmmhm.. if I had more money, I'd buy it again, but I don't. :( blergh.
and then we went to this other shop where I bought the other thing I wanted, and then we headed home. when I came home, I hung out with Nanna, because she's leaving for Berlin tomorrow. I'm gonna miss her so much, she's so weird and kind.
anyway, now the fun arrives! we decided to dress up as scenegirls. hahahahahahah. funky. which explains the picture. and it was everything typical scene. I even had my eyebrows painted with black. hahaha. it was fun times. nanna on the other hand, looked so beautiful. it actually looks great on her. I just looked like white trash.

now, I'm just waiting for my psychiatrist to arrive, but as always, he's late. I don't like him, he says some weird shit and is very rude. like, NO, emma can decide who is her father!! urgh.